Lady Lavender: Divinity in progress...

May - the longest month it has seemed. So many things to do yet nothing seemed like it was getting done. Everyday that I came home from work, all I wanted to do was sleep. I worried that it was perhaps some form of depression but, when I actually got 8 hours of sleep, I felt like a million dollars and wanted to do everything. I had to keep reminding myself that this round of stress and being overworked was temporary. I had to do something to fight it or I was going to suffer from insanity. I decided to take charge of my life. I felt the nudge to not give up and be taken by financial woes, time restrictions, and paperwork so, I gave all my cares to the universe and literally said, "Take them away and bring me relief, please." - I stopped worrying about being overworked and as soon as I did that...the most amazing thing happened.

I didn't notice it until this week but, it all added up. I started leaving work early. Most of the time, I get home around 6pm and that's if I leave work at 5pm. I started leaving around 4 - 4:15 and I would arrive at 5. That extra hour helped me get the toddler ready with dinner and in the bed a bit earlier. I would spend my last hour (before my bedtime) unwinding with a glass of wine or simply soaking in the bath. It did wonders!

Next - I had also wished that I had more help around the house and just at that time, a dear friend of mine needed some help with getting her life turned around. She asked if she could stay with me for sometime and I said sure. She enjoys to cook (and clean) and she is very organized. When I get home, dinner is almost always made. She is even awake in the morning and even packs up a lunch for me to take to work. The amount of time I was saving myself was incredible and in addition, I had more time to talk with her and listen to her issues. I love how that all worked itself out. I was/am so very thankful that she has come to live with us, even if it is just for a short time. It's as if it was meant to happen...I wonder what's next?

I've often wondered after the almost accident, "what does it take to get the Angels to talk to me?". I've heard many people say to just talk out loud and you will see that they have heard you. Ask for a sign and look around etc..etc.. - Well, I can say that I've always experienced little coincidences but none like what happened to me a little while ago. I believe the angels that are with me, have a lot of my humor mixed in to their angelic way of being. .. .

I'm a school teacher by day, and a developing intuitive counselor by night. I spend a lot of time being stressed out in my day job however, at night - I come home to a relaxing yet busy time participating in teleclasses about angels and feeling energies and so forth. The second "job" isn't paid at all (yet) but it is the most satisfying part of my day. On this particular day, I was completely out of order as my mind was filled with thoughts about the Merit Pay Bill, which basically states that teacher evaluation could be based on 50% of student achievement. Well, I was completely frustrated at this idea and saddened because our pay would be affected by this. I left work in a muddle, thinking about how education just needed to be reformed.

I had the idea figured out - I'd send letters with my idea on reforming the educational system, post videos and protests on YouTube, every teacher in America would be on my side and we'd do this. I had visions of marches, signs, and everything was all figured out. The students would be happier because teachers would be happier. Our new system would let students choose classes that would be beneficial to them and they'd have to select a career field by age 16..and so on, and so on...

Whether this was a good idea or not I was so into this idea that I nearly ran a red light. I found myself talking out loud and even debating on some issues as if I were speaking to another person. Finally, I frustrated myself even further, so much to the point that I had to shout out, "We can DO THIS!" - As soon as that was said, a little red sports car came zooming past me. It cut me short and darted in front of me. I had to hit the brake a little and I was forced to notice this little hot rod. As soon as he was in front of me, I noticed his tag. When I read what it said - I completely burst out into laughter. It was a personalized tag and on it, it read, "BIG IDEA". I chuckled and thought to myself - oh, my angels are funny are they? - Now they've got my attention. So I said again out lout, "But it IS possible, right? Reform the system?" - Just when I thought it couldn't be done again, the light in front of us changed to red. The red sports car sped over to the other lane to catch the yellow and sped off into the distance. I laid my head to rest in my hands and looked out of the window. As soon as I looked over, I noticed the building in the background. In big letters it said, "AUTO REPAIR". - I giggled again and surrendered to the power... I did need auto - repair...repair of self. Instead of changing the system, I needed to change a few things about myself and my approach to the situation.They were right and once again, they showed me the answer.

Auto repair was definitely the message I needed to hear that day and it was up to me to follow/have a plan. When I finally arrived home, I thanked my Angels, then I proceeded to evaluate myself as a teacher and the environment I had created for my students. That night, i thought of about 2 things that I could work on. I stuck to the plan and went to work the next day with a new approach and a bigger smile on my face...

It worked.. :-) Thank you Angels!