Lady Lavender: Divinity in progress...

yeah...so, almost died today. Other than that - it's been a pretty good day.
Before telling you this story, I must tell you about the events that lead up to this. WHen people say a near death experience changes you, well - granted - I didn't nearly drown nor did I flatline for 2 minutes and see "the light". What happened however, was just as scary...

So last night, January 6th - 3 Kings day. Had a great time watching the little one unwrap presents. Midnight rolls around - I'm still awake and internet channel surfing for something interesting to listen to. I stumble across a radio program and they are interviewing a lady who claims that she can photograph her Angels.

Bah! Yea right -- that's all photoshopped, right? hmmm..I watch her youtube video where she claims an Angel is in her kitchen. It's her Guardian Angel. I'm like, what? Why would a Guardian Angel be in her kitchen and let alone allow itself to be filmed? Bah! - Another photoshopped or 3-D effect added to the video, right?

I go to sleep with those ideas on my brain.

Wake up - chaotic morning. Kid, breakfast, clothes, coffee - out the door. On my way to work, I notice how brilliant the sun was. Nice and orange. The clouds were peppered with that slow-rising orange and I thought again about the lady and the Angels. I was thinking , "I wonder if this is what it looks like when people say they "see" and "hear" the chorus of Angels? Would the sky appear to be in flames? Or would the Angels appear out of a fire-orange red flame in the sky? hmmm...

In this moment, I then thought to myself, "I wonder if my Guardian Angel is with me right now? They are never suppose to leave your side..." - then suddenly, it happened. I'm driving down the road thinking about Angels and at the same time, sizing up the green traffic light. If it were to turn yellow, I'd go faster, rather than slow down. A little voice said - "HIT THE BRAKE!" - So, I slammed on brakes.

The traffic light turned yellow but, when it did - the cable on the left hand side of the road holding the traffic light, suddenly snapped and gave way. The whole thing came crashing down in front of me. Since I had already slammed on brakes before it actually snapped, my car came to a screeching halt, three steps away from where the lights and cables broke to bits in front of me. There was a small flash of electicity as it hit the ground. Everything was in slow motion for me and I felt like I was in the middle of the moovie 2012 - you know the one where the ground is breaking apart and people are just missing the holes and other flying objects by a milisecond?

I stared at the mess on the ground before me for what seemed like an eternity. The car in the opposite direction lane, happened to be underneath the light when it fell. He/she swerved to move out of the way, hit the curb, and flipped his/her car. About 5 or 6 people jumped out of their car to get to the flipped one. I just sat in my car, pretty freaked out. I started thinking of my 5 yr old. "Did I kiss her goodbye this morning? Is she wearing her jacket? Did I put chapstick on her lips before she left?" etc..and about 100 more things.

Finally, someone popped by the window and said, "are you ok?" I said yes and then I turned to look again at the mess. I finally pulled myself together and drove around it, and on to work. I stopped and asked if the guy in the other car was ok and people said yes, then I continued on. I got about 2 feet away and all of sudden tears came pouring down like rain. I couldn't catch my breath. I was shaky, shaking, nervous, and I panicked as I rolled up to the next traffic light. I was sooo glad to be alive and that people weren't picking glass out of my head while waiting for an ambulance. I'm SO glad that I wasn't waiting for a helicopter to pull me out of it all.I was happy to smell the coffee in my car, happy to see the school buses, happy to go to work, happy for the ants, the trees, the water that I drink, all the people I know, and in an instant, a billion people's names came to me. I'm happy I've lived as long as I have...

Before I got to work, I looked up towards the sky - this time, I wasn't thinking of the sky, rather the Heavens. I saw there, 5 bright orange like "flames" or pairs of wings - in the sky. Very distinct from the clouds - whispy almost and slight transparent. I couldn't help but wonder if they were 5 Angels watching over me but either way, I voiced out the words, thank you - I'm grateful. As I got to work, I jumped out of my car and hugged the very first person I met. I was so happy to be able to feel , see, hear, and just be alive...

Maybe not so close to death as some of you may have experienced, but - then again, any brush with danger is a little too close for me. I'm glad for every minute that I have lived on this Earth.

Today was quite interesting. I got the idea to create a radio show in hopes of attracting other people like myself -- just waking up to their divine side. I'm sure there are plenty of networks out there but, I don't know - I just get the feeling that we can create a nice little niche of people.

I started off tonight by interviewing a Medium and another person who reads kabbalah cards. I just wanted to talk to them to find out how they got started. Be sure to click on the big green button on the left to listen. If you scroll too far down the page then you'll activate the music. I'm going to eventually disable it but for now, I like it. Just scroll down and hit pause if you don't want to hear it while you read or listen to our show.

The one thing I learned from our Medium on tonight's show, was that , the way he put it - Mediumship or being a Medium can choose you. You just have to go with the flow when it does because you can't get rid of it. I like that idea. It would seem to match my ideas about destiny already being picked for you. Hmm..but that's another topic...perhaps we'll save it for the show.

In the meantime, I've been feeling a bit ill lately. An all of sudden nauseating feeling here and there. The back of my neck starts to tickle and then my hair stands up on edge then I feel great. It's the strangest thing. I'm quite happy and when I think about becoming a psychic or medium - I get excited, happy, and it's like a feeling that I can't get enough of...

Bah, tomorrow - back to reality and work in this realm. I'm not enjoying not being on vacation. Let's see if we get some snow ...

So, here we are - several months after all the odd happenings. Let me bring ou up to date on how my life has been for the past few months.

- I bought some Angel cards. They are kind of like tarot cards in the sense that they are large. Other than they, they bare no resemblence. I've always enjoyed using crystals so one day, I found myself at my usual metaphysical book store and these cards, just seem to call out to me. I had a "craving" to buy them. It was odd because never in my life have I ever used tarot cards, angel cards, whatever...nothing. But I knew I just "had" to buy them. So, I purchased them.

Got home, didn't bother to read the insert and got on skype. Sure enough, a friend of mine gets on and I tell them about what I've bought and all of sudden, I break out into a reading. I "felt" that he needed 5 cards - so I just selected a random 5 and began reading what was on the card. Very easy - but then, after that, I started to elaborate on their meanings. I couldn't stop myself. I was like blah blah blah blah -- information just poured out of my mouth. It was insane! About 10 mins later, I stopped and asked did any of that make sense and to my suprise, my friend was nearly in tears. Everything I said had touched him. I was shocked and amazed all at the same time.

I put the cards away and a few days later, his friends starting asking me to do readings for them. - This all spiraled into me buying a pendulum, candles, more crystals, and books about how to do this. As I kept giving readings, I started feeling more things. I could "feel" sadness, or negativity, happiness - joy, and sometimes fear. It wasn't my feelings but I could tell how the other person was feeling.

Finally, it happened. I had given my friend a reading - and put the cards away. She was telling me about the events in her life etc, etc.. then all of a sudden, I got an image of someone in my head. It was as if it were being projected from just above the spot right between the eyes...you know, where the infamous "third eye" would be?

I described to her what I saw and what I felt. I didn't hear a voice but "felt" a voice. I "felt" a name and "felt" the relationship between her and this person..then another little girl "appeared" in my mind. I got images of hugs and laughter, a good time... I told my friend all of this... bewilderment. She confirmed that the people I was describing had been two people in her family about 5 years ago - now passed on. I didn't know a thing about these people yet, I described them perfectly she said.

After that, I put away the cards and tried to stop whatever was going on. I freaked out. I began to go get readings on my own. I'm being told I am a psychic and at my last reading, I was told that I was at 95% strength and getting stronger.

Over the holidays I did several readings where I was able to connect to the past, the present, and see future events. I "feel" impressions but I don't actually hear voices. I can't physically see people rather, they feel like memories, images. Very strange.

I've decided to continue with this and see how it develops in 2010. Maybe, just maybe I'll become good at it. I need to practice and gain confidence I was told. So, this is my blog. If anybody out there is "waking" up, please contact me. I would love to hear your stories.

Peace, Love, Health & Happiness!