Lady Lavender: Divinity in progress...

The next morning, I awaken with the morning sunlight. I feel strong and confident that it be a great day. Though a little terrified of the morning bugs that I may find in the outhouse, I muster up some courage to go there and try it out. It's just one small obstacle to get over, right? I get there, no bugs, so the potty time is easy. Now, off to conquer the showers. I arrive there with my towel, toothbrush and clothes for the day and of course, somebody is using it. I decide to wait, in another part of the forest.

The Labyrinth: A lovely sacred place.

The labyrinth is close to the showers so I decided to go over there while I wait. The idea is that you can walk in it with a question in your mind and by the time you've gone through it, you will have an answer. Pretty cool I thought - never mind the sacred part. I go in but without a question but a hope - I was hoping that I would be shown my spiritual life purpose path.

I entered the labryinth and as I walked through it I'm looked down at ground. I figured, hey - why look up when the path will guide me. I started off very slow and I was listening to some binaural beats in my ipod. I walked slowly and steadily, almost marchlike but as I focused on my breathing, I noticed something started to change. I became more aware of the sound of my feet and breathing as I picked up the pace. It was as if all the moving parts of my body were suddenly in sync. I wasn't in tune with the music I was listening to but rather in sync with my body, breathing, walking, and watching the ground. I started to focus and it seemed as if I were in a trance of some sort. Nothing seemed to matter except keeping the pace.

The thoughts came and quickly disappeared. I found myself focusing on 1 question - where will my life path take me? I remember at some point, I asked Arch Angel Michael to come in to greet me and of course, I felt him there. All around me. An unexplainable bliss fell over me and tears came from my eyes. It was so weird. I kept going and as I walked around, I saw signs. I mean, real signs - in the middle of the forest. How crazy is that? Basically, my question was getting answered.

The signs: How did that get there?

First, I saw a few rocks piled up on top of each other like a triangle. I understood that it meant, my foundation must be strong so build it. The next thing I noticed was a figure in a tree stump that looked like a heart. Love yourself - is how I took it. Then when I arrived inside the core of the labyrinth, I notice a Chinese symbol carved into a rock. I couldn't read it but it seemed to transform itself into the words, O.K. - I took that as meaning everything is going to be alright if I stay on track. I stopped to take the time to look at all the things people had left before me and it seemed like each one of those items meant something to me to. As I walked out of the core and back around, the signs I noticed said beauty and patience. Amazing how your questions get answered in ways you least expect it, isn't it? I left feeling peaceful and comfortable with my life. Now if only I could feel that way before getting in to an exposed open shower...

The shower was actually a magical experience for me. Being able to shower in the early morning light with the open forest right there at my back was a little frightening yet also enlightening. I was able to turn my gaze towards the forest and for once feel as the whole world were watching, without judgment. I felt the gaze of the beautiful trees, and the wandering eyes of the sky above - looking and examining me but with arms of joy. They were welcoming me home and they let me know they were glad I had returned. I can't explain it but for someone who is terrified of public exposure, somehow - showering there, where anything or anyone could have come up - gave me more optimism and most importantly, a realization and love for the natural beauty of the forest, and for my own. After that shower, I felt as if I had not only washed off dirt and the remains from a lovely bond fire, but that I had also uncovered a precious gem that lie beneath a layer of ignorance.

Morning Mantra: Om sweet Om

The rest of the morning brought me to kirtan chanting. It was 108 repetitions of the Gayatri Mantra. It basically asking the brilliance of Divinity to illuminate us. Om Bhur Buvaha Suvaha
Tat Savithur Varenyam / Bhargo Devasya Dheemahi / Dhiyo Yonaha Prachodayat would be the original words and of course, there are many version on the internet so if you're curious and want to know more, just google it. I walked over to the lovely glass house and arrived just in time for chanting. At first, I didn't want to surrender to the vibrant sounds but eventually, I did and when I let myself relax and just be, only then did amazing things begin to happen.

First, I had a deja-vu - big deal, right? But this time I made myself stay in the moment and it worked. It dawned on me that I had dreamt this scene 3 weeks before. It was something about chanting, a blanket, and a guy on a bike. Later, I asked my friend if she remembered the dream I had told her about and luckily, she did. We both realized it at the same time - the guy that we had met on the bike earlier, the blankets wrapped around the people and the chanting were all the same things that I had mentioned some 3 weeks before. Incredible, isn't it?

After a few more moments of silence, I went even further into my trance or daydream. I had a vision of me teaching yoga only I wasn't myself. I turned into a figure that was larger than life. This figure was gigantic and had 6 arms. It was female and had a red jewel in the middle of her crown. From the top two hands, I was pouring out energy upon the people. The middle two hands were doing yoga and the bottom two hands were making sure that the energy was being distributed evenly amongst the people. I took it to mean that my life was at a crossroads. A change was upon me and so I must be aware of my own energy. Distribute my own energy evenly throughout the varied activities that I enjoy. When I arrived back to civilization, I asked my Hindu friend if she knew anything about this vision. She told me to search for a goddess called , Kali. When I read about Kali - I was completely floored. Kali apparently was also known for the goddess of eternal energy! wow! absolutely amazing.

Downward facing dog again: The ultimate peace

That afternoon at yoga was also a very uplifting and wonderful experience for me. By this time, I was completely floating on air after having had my visions, talking to new people, and just becoming one with nature. Could it get any better? Of course it did. I show up to the yoga, ready for action. I was worried it would be too much for me since I am recovering from arthritis in the knees and 8 weeks of chiropractic therapy for it. I decided to go anyway and hoped that it would make a difference in my body. This yoga was Vinyasa flow with kirtan chanting. The amount of love in that room was out of this world. We did many poses over and over, constantly moving and breathing. We were all in rhythm with each other and with our breathing. As we held a warrior two pose, I felt my eyes begin to burn with tears. Not because it was hard to do, but because an overwhelming sense of bliss filled my heart. I was extremely happy to be there doing this exercise and I was so thankful for all of my friends, family, and everything else you can imagine. Several times this happened and I couldn't explain it. Finally, at the end of this session, the yoga instructor came by and anointed us with an essential oil. Lavender I think, or maybe patchouli. Whatever it was, seemed so extremely familiar to me that I remember laying on the mat in shavasanah and thinking to myself, there's no place like home. I didn't mean the home that we had driven 100 miles from, but another home - another cosmic home it seemed. A world unlike the place we call Earth and a world where everyone is enlightened. That feeling stayed within me - a memory that I had was opened and relived again. I guess I must have found that spot in which all is peaceful.

The yoga was over but the feeling that is provoked within me still lingered on. I didn't want it to stop and I knew that somehow that I must return to that place again. I must return home. The flame of white light inside me had just been rekindled...

In circles: Back at the labyrinth

Finally, the night was coming to an end. I felt great but it seemed like I was missing one more piece of this ultimate path to enlightenment. What could it be?
That night, we had a meditation in the labyrinth complete with candles, live music, and a digeridoo. The labyrinth seemed even more magical and mystical than earlier that morning and I couldn't wait to go through again to see what it had to tell me. The funny thing was , after going through it, I realized that I had actually gotten the answer before I even entered. You see, we had to get smudged with sage before going in. The young man standing at the entrance had a bowl of burning sage and he wafted upon us , one by one, before stepping into the labyrinth. The two words he said to me before I entered, were perhaps the most enlightening that I had heard all day. Just after he scanned me with the last little bit of smoke, he said - Namaste sister. -- Namaste sister is what resonated with me throughout that walk. It was very familiar to me that sound. I don't know why because I haven't got any brothers or sisters and even less, the word namaste as I didn't study yoga or anything related to it before that weekend. I don't know what it was but, after he said it I realized that yes, he is correct! We are all brothers and sisters here. I felt a grand connection with the people standing behind me even the ones that I didn't speak to much during the weekend. Maybe it was the chanting together - we would be connected through that energy I suppose. Perhaps it was the skinny dipping in the middle of the night? We'd all be connected through daring and uninhibited actions .. or maybe it was because of the laughter and jokes we shared, overcoming personal obstacles, or maybe it was because we weren't allowed to have cell phones and PCs there in the public area. Somehow, by disconnecting ourselves with our comfortable life, we all became reconnected with self and others. Whatever the reason, I know that those people present in the forest that weekend were my cosmic family. My true brothers and sisters.